Be Who You Are
Recently, someone asked me what my biggest regret was. It took me no time at all to come up with an answer. My biggest regret is that I used to tone myself down to fit with what other people wanted me to be. I’ve never been one to “fit the mold.” I remember how hard I tried in middle school and most of high school to be like everyone else but I never could succeed. My priorities were just different than those around me. Others searched for popularity and parties while I was pursuing music and creative activities because that’s what I love. Neither was better or worse-just different.
When I started really pursuing my music, I posted almost every day promoting the work that I was so proud of. I had worked day in day out to make something people would enjoy so obviously I wanted to share it with the world. At first, I was nervous because I wondered what my peers would think. I didn’t want to make it look like I was trying too hard or looking for approval. I began to tone myself down in front of my friends. I wanted to look “normal” even though I’m quite different than your average teen. That’s when my mother reminded me that I wasn’t posting for the approval my peers, I was posting for the people who needed to hear my music. I made my music for people who needed an escape from what they were going through. That’s the same reason I started my blog. I’m writing for the people who need to hear that they are not alone and that it does get better.
It took a long time for me to realize that I am uniquely myself. It took really accepting myself. It wasn’t easy. Now that I’m older, I don’t tone myself down. I know who I am and I’m not going to allow others to make me feel less than because of it. Be who you are and don’t let the opinion of the people around you scare you into hiding yourself away. You have to learn to accept yourself for who you are, which is way easier said than done. There are still days where I feel insecure but I just have to remind myself that I am enough and you are too.